Not good

Sometimes in life you have to tell people white lies.

Sometimes you have to lie to people you love.

Sometimes, you have to lie to avoid very uncomfortable situation.

That’s my situation, now. And i feel bad. Really bad.

I’m not moralist, really, this is not about doing something wrong. I’ve been thrown in a difficult situation, by people who’re supposed to support you, not to make you feel ill. I’ve made errors in the past – nothing really bad, believe me, nothing related to crimes, drugs, or anything like that – and i’m not proud of them. Sometimes i feel ashame. But been depressed is not a fault, is not a crime, and when you’re ok, when you finally climb out of the hole, people near you distrust you.

I’m not saying i want to be decorated for what i’ve been into. A lot of people go through depression, and a lot get out, like me. I think this was part of my life, and that experience make me tha man that i am now.

I’m not perfect, i still have a lot to learn. But heck, i don’t diserve this treatment from people who’re supposed to love me.

So i have to lie, sometimes. I feel bad about that, and i promise that i won’t put myself into a similar situation again in my life.

And i’m serious.

Sorry for the absence

I’m really sorry for the absence, i was wondering about a lot of things… i needed to make some decisions about the blog:  find the proper platform, be really convinced to write on a blog periodically, what language sto use… and so on. Yes, i always think a lot on things, but usually when i make a decision that is, forever. Likely

I’m back

I’ve been absent for a month, it’s been a tough one.

old pc ironic

I’m doing an European Course of Web Design, and after that life took a big piece of what’s left. For the end of the month, I’ll write an article on Darwin (yes, the naturalist) for a school magazine. This article is the fourth one, and I’m very excited about this collaboration.

I promise to be more constant, I’ve got a lot of things to tell about.

I’m fixing a pc of a friend of mine, and here one thought: how can people use a pc with a Win XP O.S. without any Service Pack, anti-virus and anti-malware installed? My God. And then they run to you saying: “Nothing’s working!”.

Ok, ok. Stop whining, a good format and go! A brief list of what I’m putting inside this Celeron 1,5 GHz with 512 Mb of RAM:

• O.S.: a fresh new Win XP SP3;
• Antivirus: Avira Antivirus;
• Antimalware: Spybot Search & Destroy;
• Internet browser: Mozilla Firefox;
• Email client: Mozilla Thunderbird;
• General utility: CCleaner.

I think will be enough for a common user

And the Autumn Came

It’s been some days now that the weather suddenly changed. From the extremely hot and wet, know it’s gray and rainy.

Yesterday was the first day of school for the high schooler here, and it was the tipical school day: rainy, a bit cold, sleepy. I wake up moderately early, about 8.30 AM, to fiund my father mumbling while he was shaving himself. With a glance out of the window, it brought me 10 years in the past, when I was preparing myself to going to school when i was about 16. Ow, now it’s quite a time I’m feeling like I was younger, I’m wondering why.

The last week I received my limited copy of Space Hulk, and I worked a little to assembly it; at the same time, I bought a copy of Charles Darwin‘s Zoology of the Voyage of H.M.S. Beagle and started to read it: it’s very illuminating, even if not an easy reading.

I’m starting to register the use of my hours, on the way of Dave Seah‘s one (sorry but Dave is a very creative and productive writer, and I can’t recover the exact article). Maybe at the end of the week I’ll post it.

See you soon, with something more specific

A Productive Week End

So, it’s Monday, and I’m thinking if I had a productive week end or not.

I would categorize my activities in these 2 days in the following areas:

• social
• family-related
  
• self-improvement
• study

For social, I had a dinner with my parents and some friends on Saturday. It was a friend of us birthday, so we went in a nice place where we ate a good pizza, a good dessert, and I drank 2 pints of a good blonde beer, the Pedavena. It’s quite a lot for me (it was not when I was 18, you know, but after 22 I promised to be more virtuous) but after 4 hours of carpentery work I felt very hungry and thirsty. Today, after visitng my grandfather, I went with my father for a walk in our local main square, and we drank a couple of Spritz. I think I had a decent socializing this week-end.

For family-related things, I went visiting my old grandfather with my father at the old people’s home. He’s 94, and he can’t hear very much. He ate his cream croissant, had his coffee, and spoke by my father’s cell phone with his far sisters (they live in Rome). On Saturday, I tryed to visit my other grandparents, my mother’s parents, but there was nobody at home. It’s a pity, anyway I think I cared enough of my relatives in this week end.

For self-improvement, I upgraded my study postation: I added 4 small wheels to my desk, to help little movements for cleaning and avoid my mother made things fall off from the top when she’s doing the washing (last time the Netgear router fell down!). By the way, I added some little reinforcements to the desk structure, and built with some wood planking 3 drawer organizers for my desk drawers. I found the idea here, a very nice web site in my opinion.

For study, I did very little in the week end. I’m start thinking of studying more during the week, and reserve my week end time for various improvements.

At the end, I think I had a generally good week end.

More coming on the week itself…